October 28, 2010

Unchanging Change

When we found out that we'd be moving from our country setting to a metro suburban area.....well, I had many plans in my head. Plans for change. I truly love looking at life as if it's a big glass full of water.....at least half full. Unfortunately, I think I've fooled myself. I thought I was looking at things in that positive way, but really....honestly......my glass always felt half empty. Before our move I had been frustrated with myself....I was stuck in some negative thought patterns and I couldn't get myself to change. Sort of the Fred Flinstone of change.....legs spinning, wheels not moving.

Negative thought patterns....that's one area. That's an area that could somewhat be hidden. Accumulating clutter was an area that could not. Actually, it could be hidden well in our last home.....there were closets and space galore. I'm starting to wonder if God purposely gave us limited options for our new home.....it's a relatively small space with nowhere to hide/store things. Our clutter is exposed......therefore, our clutter needs to be dealt with.

Are you following me here? I can no longer hide ....from myself....the need for me to change my negative thought patterns and my stuff. It's been about 6 months since our move and I'm finally realizing that I need to stop thinking about the change that needs to take place....I need to live it. Actually get off my butt and live it.....decluttering my thoughts and my closets. Out with the old, neatly storing the treasures, and making room for the fresh~positive~.....change. It's time for me to stop talking about change....and to start changing.

And that's where the battle may start........more on that....

3 comments:

Wendy said...

Oh, can I relate to your Fred Flintstone analogy...my wheels are spinning and I am going absolutely nowhere!! I have the 'clutter' issues, both physically and mentally, but our biggest struggle is relationships right now. Respect for authority, obedience, kindness, joyfulness, self-control, etc. I'm so worn out...after months and months of this. Everywhere I turn I seem to find no answers. It's heartbreaking at times and I feel like such a failure....anyway, reading your post just brought it all out. Sorry for the tirade! There is a lot to change...within myself and in others in the family. I am praying that the God of change will do this because I am unable on my own.

Tiffanie said...

I found you! :) I love all your thoughts and have no doubt you will declutter and live with GUSTO! don't be too hard on yourself...you've gone thru a major life change and all this is to be expected!! :)

Life with Kaishon said...

You are very beautiful!

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