November 3, 2011

Day by Day

This week has been interesting. Not typical, that's for sure. We still have not re-filled our fridge after losing power {and losing food}. Early in the week, my endometriosis started
flaring up {or firing up, as it feels like my abdomen is on fire}....which caused us to re-think our week. I decided to cancel any activity because I feel as if I'm walking in a fog. Getting out among people, driving, and other things is not a good idea while in a fog. I've learned this through experience.

 I actually allowed myself to stay in bed until 9am today. It's odd....if I had a cold or the flu I would not think twice about staying in bed and nursing myself. With my endometriosis, I don't always feel that I'm allowed the same grace. I've not been on top of it lately. In fact, I've still not found a new gyno {I'm in a bit of denial}. I've experienced a good amount of stress the past few weeks. Stress that was unexpected, and totally unnecessary. I allowed it to seep into my life.....and I believe I internalized a lot. I do believe that stress can cause us to become sick....or worsen symptoms.

A couple days ago I woke up with heavy thoughts. I was feeling sad because I felt like I lost focus. I was having one of those "what is this all about" moments and feeling like I've driven off course a bit. It feels like someone in my life was put there to cause stress....or I've allowed myself to get stressed. It's been draining and distracting. I opened one of my favorite devotionals. One that I hadn't opened in a long time {Jesus Calling by Sarah Young}.

And this is what it said.....

"Do not be discouraged by the difficulty of keeping your focus on Me. I know that  your heart's desire is to be aware of My Presence continually. This is a lofty goal; you aim toward it but never fully achieve it in this life. Don't let feelings of failure weigh you down. Instead, try to see yourself as I see you........

When you realize that your mind has wandered away from Me, don't be alarmed or surprised. You live in a world that has been rigged to distract you. Each time you plow your way through the massive distractions to communicate with Me, you achieve a victory. Rejoice in these tiny triumphs, and they will increasingly light up your days. "

6 comments:

Tiffanie said...

Oh Mimi! I'm so sorry that I haven't been there for you this week. Shame on me. Please give no more thought to "you know who"...this has nothing to do with YOU and everything to do with HER. Seriously. Let's talk later. :) LOVE YOU!

Ruth said...

This explains a lot. I was a bit worried about you when I didn't seem to be getting through... I have been praying for you though. Your Heavenly Father has this covered...

{{{HUGS}}}

Darcie said...

I completely understand Mimi. Enjoyed even reading in Acts 7, when Stephen was being stoned, and the crowd was closing in on him...he looked UP, that is when he saw God and Jesus standing at God's right hand. What that must of meant for Stephen in that moment. It was just a lesson for me when things seems to be pressing in on me, and the world is coming at me hard and fast, that I need to spot and LOOK UP, and remember I have all of heaven on my side, if I want to avail myself of it. Glad you know just where to look, my friend. (((HUGS)))

Polly said...

Praying with/for you dear friend. I'm also doing the Jesus Calling devotional, isn't it uncanny how the devotions seem so in step with our daily needs? I pray your day is painfree and joy filled.

Kristen, pajama mama said...

Mimi,

it's so nice to "meet" you. I'm sorry you're having a rough week, but find your posts so encouraging that you choose to trust God through what life brings. i loved reading about how your family came to be.

We got our workboxes (those transparent file folders) at target for about $10/each. They were in the office supply, stationary section, if you have a target nearby. they've worked really well for our schooling.

hope today is better for you,
kristen

Tara said...

So sorry I had no idea but I hope you are truly feeling better. Some days I get in a fog too and I just have no motivation to do anything! I love the part about rejoicing in tiny triumphs...most days I need to remove a lot of distractions and communicate with Him more often.

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