Day by Day

This week has been interesting. Not typical, that's for sure. We still have not re-filled our fridge after losing power {and losing food}. Early in the week, my endometriosis started
flaring up {or firing up, as it feels like my abdomen is on fire}....which caused us to re-think our week. I decided to cancel any activity because I feel as if I'm walking in a fog. Getting out among people, driving, and other things is not a good idea while in a fog. I've learned this through experience.

 I actually allowed myself to stay in bed until 9am today. It's odd....if I had a cold or the flu I would not think twice about staying in bed and nursing myself. With my endometriosis, I don't always feel that I'm allowed the same grace. I've not been on top of it lately. In fact, I've still not found a new gyno {I'm in a bit of denial}. I've experienced a good amount of stress the past few weeks. Stress that was unexpected, and totally unnecessary. I allowed it to seep into my life.....and I believe I internalized a lot. I do believe that stress can cause us to become sick....or worsen symptoms.

A couple days ago I woke up with heavy thoughts. I was feeling sad because I felt like I lost focus. I was having one of those "what is this all about" moments and feeling like I've driven off course a bit. It feels like someone in my life was put there to cause stress....or I've allowed myself to get stressed. It's been draining and distracting. I opened one of my favorite devotionals. One that I hadn't opened in a long time {Jesus Calling by Sarah Young}.

And this is what it said.....

"Do not be discouraged by the difficulty of keeping your focus on Me. I know that  your heart's desire is to be aware of My Presence continually. This is a lofty goal; you aim toward it but never fully achieve it in this life. Don't let feelings of failure weigh you down. Instead, try to see yourself as I see you........

When you realize that your mind has wandered away from Me, don't be alarmed or surprised. You live in a world that has been rigged to distract you. Each time you plow your way through the massive distractions to communicate with Me, you achieve a victory. Rejoice in these tiny triumphs, and they will increasingly light up your days. "