You have been on my mind a lot lately. You see, I've noticed that our relationship has taken a turn. From the beginning, we have always had a give and take relationship. Actually, in the beginning ....you were the one giving so much more. With your help we found the biggest joys of our lives. You were instrumental in that path...God used you in big ways.
Then there were various health situations that came up in our lives. Again, you gave and gave.....helping us find what we needed. God used you again in a mighty way. Because of that, I will never doubt what you are capable of. You've introduced me to some fabulous friends....for that I am so thankful. I'm thankful that you have helped me connect with friends and loved ones on days that I do not have time to pick up the phone. You really have kept me connected dear C.
But....and you knew there would be a but.....you have also taken from me. You are such a flirt and seem to encourage me to waste time. As I go about my day, you beckon to me....."come sit with me and play...just a little while longer". I look back at our visits and wonder.....was there something more important that I should have been doing? You have allowed me to escape a sometimes busy day.....but not always in a positive way. Some mornings, I visit with you....and realize that an hour has passed, or more. I should have been doing something else.....I could write a long list of other things that I should have been doing.
I blame myself for this, dear C. Truly.....It's not you....it's me. I've realized that maybe we should not visit in the morning.....you tend to suck my mornings away. Because of all the good our relationship brings.....I am not willing to say good bye. But, I do know that something has to change. Time is passing quickly.....my children are growing and changing.....my marriage is growing and changing..... Dear C....I see my potential, but are you hindering it or helping it? Are you a positive or a negative influence?
Well dear C......my dear Computer......it's time to make breakfast......read a book with my kids.....get dressed and start my day. I hope to see you later.....much later.
Your faithful friend,
**While watching Brer Rabbit with the boys today Ross asked what "brer" meant. I answered that I didn't know. He responded...."ask the computer, it knows!". Mr Computer gives as much as he takes ;)