March 15, 2012

Same 'Ol Thoughts

I noticed something....I'm starting to forget what life used to be like. Our life back home was sort of typical. We had a house and a yard. There was a Wegmans on every corner (oh, how I miss the Canandaigua Wegmans, and that Homegoods, too). Grandparent's lived an easy distance away.....along with uncles, aunts, and cousins. My friends....old, and some new.....would visit, or meet up somewhere for spontaneous fun. Greg {being self-employed} had a super flexible and very homeschool friendly work schedule. I spent every day swiffering our hard wood floors, running around the house {indoors and out}, and enjoying our custom made space. Ahhhh, those days felt like they would go on forever.

Secretly, I wished for a change. I felt this yearning for something different, for a bit of adventure. And then before I could blink, my swiffering wood, running around the house days were over. Did I ever share that the day our house was all packed up, I hid in a closet and cried? I couldn't even tell you why I was crying. I had such mixed emotions that day.....I still do. I'm a broken record as I keep repeating that our new life is so different. But it is. I walk around our complex and shake my head. The people, the atmosphere, the possibilities.....it's all so new, and different.

This living out of boxes cannot go on forever. Or can it? I'm just not sure. My prayer has been that the Lord will show us where He wants us to be. For some reason, He wanted us here.....a place I never, ever thought I'd be. In planting us here, He has also made sure to put certain things, certain people on our path. Through that, He keeps reminding me that He's here, He's guiding. I feel very different than I did 2 years ago.....when we lived out in the country, in the big new house. I miss that life, yet I don't. {We definitely miss the people}.

6 comments:

Darcie said...

I get it! I get this post, I get your thoughts, I get your mixed emotions...I simply...get it!

Hugs!

Ruth Jackson said...

This post resonated with me in a way that I cant even begin to articulate. :-/

I can totally relate to those mixed emotions......

{{{Hugs}}}

Wendy said...

Sometimes I just want to hide in a closet, too.

StacyB said...

I bawled like a baby when I Went back to my old house to clean up and it was empty. BAWLED. Drooling I was crying so hard.

I get you.
He never changes thankfully

really.truly said...

You guys are awesome. I love that you get me....especially when I was pretty certain I made no sense :)

Tara said...

Lean on Him, he'll direct your path and put you exactly where he wants you.

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